BUTTERFLY HUM

BUTTERFLY HUM

By: Arif Budiman

After a long bus ride from Rawamangun. Finally I arrived at Malang. Beautiful city which is quite impressive for me. Now I'm at home. Met her mother, but no father because when I arrived, his father the same time there is a need in Jogja. Nonie evening the story of his past. Beautiful home cool and Gondang Legi, South Malang. When he would start with the story, I took a deep breath, widen the spaces in the chest is wide open for a story, a story that will be much heavier than the stories I've ever heard before. He took me into the family room while the clock pointed to nine in the evening, shortly after I accompanied Rio, cousin Nonie deliveries to Mas Nardi catfish catfish in the market traders Gondang Legi. Yesterday since I saw her smile bright. Normal daily activities. He is brighter than the first. He was calmer now. When I want to go to Malang was a cheerful face is certainly looming forced. But now her smile is more genuine even though the real issue is being clung a million thoughts.Since first coming, I act like I'm used to the quiet. but only time can speak very well qualified nylekit or thinking about philosophy-quality eksistensialisnya Mulla Sadra was very kugeluti on Campus. Maybe that's what influenced him to not be afraid with all the problems of life. Even to hear the most terrible story of a man who expects perfection. Another man would have ran helter skelter and chose to disappear from the paths of life. I do not ...! There is great power to strengthen the soul. That is the existential awareness of the ultimate presence as the first cause that started all the causes and consequences. When thinking it affect me, I have become very quiet. Although there is still worry if what was soon to hear the news that most do not want. But I have prepared a heart device with all the answers and philosophical reasons as the first ever dikatakanya "Everything comes from the Land and Land Ket will return" at least Nonie want to say that no human perfection dibanggai yet all come from the same substance as the land of origin humans. That is true human being.Nonie called me and asked me to sit in the living room in the house lit Neon light-power 25 Watt. Above the room where we were sitting there was a wheel that had been on display right above the head, no other accessories are for the purpose. Apparently his father was very nyeni. because in the room or other places also met the same spatial set. I sat beside him. As for the closeness that I show him this. So far I feel very calm when sitting near him.Instead I'm suddenly wondering what ...? Because usually when he had taken like that, usually there are really serious. I malh sudden guilt ridden over all my stupid attitude for a long time it did not communicate with it. To be honest it was because of economic factors is heavy enough that menjadikaku can not see him. Novel penyelesiaan reasons which would interfere with his mind. I do not understand what a novel or writing for him. Actual I just wanted to see him and there was no intention to ignore it. I wanted to hear all the complaints rather than communication via telephone let alone sms.My heart is getting excited because he spoke in a tone that is very slow. Though his voice low so as not to disturb the atmosphere alone that it was night and fear mengangganggu adek and his mother who was sleeping. I knew Mama was so tired from the long day care homes, also called the customer a few days catfish is quite crowded.His face was looking towards the side door of a large flat tv in the living room and make sure the sound is too loud speech. But it seems adeknya Ninis still awake. Apparently he was watching her favorite soap opera.Mas ....!! Nonie suddenly opening speech. "It's time for me to have to talk with Mas Ai fear there is no time for talk for tomorrow Tuesday Mas Ai must bersigera to Jakarta."Sebebetulnya yesterday of his intention is for talking about this issue. I'm looking for the right moment. Or I'm looking for the right language to avoid mistakes when speaking. So tonight is, I try to talk ". I saw he was serious but relaxed. My heart is getting excited but not as hard as excited when I heard the honesty of the first few months ago. The first story, I've prepared well in advance. So it is with this second story. Actually a lot of stories that have been submitted but the stories dituturkannya slowly and little by little. Possibly, because of time constraints, or perhaps he was waiting for the right time for me to accept it. He was like a mother who is very slow in conveying a story. Not infrequently used figurative language to express a view. I'm a little disappointed when her mother's still covering up the truth. Of course because he expects something good to me. I already positioned as a stupid child who would be lied to. Although again the philosophical foundations and preparation tools to help me care enough to not need to have such feelings. But the human soul koq easy to say I cheated ....?? On the other hand the soul of my mind saying that he did not like it. And in the end I have been very understanding and able to accept any situation."Mas Ai, in fact there is a story that Mas Ai had never heard of me. He paused and then continued. "I'm a user ....!" I'm not too surprised when the news about her because I already know the user's time in London. Me and him had together was carrying illicit dispose of it in the bathroom first time a three-day gathering in London (home mbahnya). I know that he was a user. I'm surprised but I was never scared by all the stories even though most menakutkans. To me the scariest stories and most terrifying for me is when people still membanggai absence of God. They are people who prefer a moment of happiness with the indulgence of lust immoral. Or membanggai immoral behavior with women dishonored."If on the User you, I already know. Sister never told first time in Bandung "he hastily replied that was true but not that. He paused a moment and hurried on. "Mas still remember the story about Aldi ..... mama! Jrengngng .. Jreng .. jreng ....!. I was suddenly startled. Himself why the name that always comes up again in this connection. Again, always associated with Aldi, ex. All there is kaitanya with Aldi ...! "I gasped as he mentions the name of someone who I can barely hear it stronger. Not because Aldinya evil in my eyes because it's a good man even very good. If not, it is unlikely he will be close to Nonie. Aldilah that have accompanied all his problems. That's why I never agree if Aldi considered ugly just because I'm now going to marry her. No I do not agree to Mama and her father do it. I would always give the opportunity to Nonie to choose the best man. I always give him a chance. I menyilahkan Nonie for others. Intiny for that option will make Nonie happy. I should not get the words for him. I just do not want love in duakannya. I really do not like being betrayed, cheated or lied to. I really do not want it. Because I loved him very much. Persolan complex that it faces a very difficult position them. I was only able to see it as a woman that is easy to switch. Why communication with Aldi almost never break. There is a friend in a rented place they used to say that love can not be separated. If it is true that I had been a barrier. I do not want to ruin suau relationship that has long nurtured. despite the pain I have received and accepted all the facts are there, although he should be the property of others.I do not know what the meaning of her smile that night. Fluorescent lamp is threaded with bright cheery smile clarify that night. I did a few times to see how changes in expression on his face, how to look on while he was honest and how to look on while he was lying. It was the secret of God is what an exciting challenge to all things open. Let the secret exists, and it will make us keep trying. Same fate as us how to understand something that is still secret even highly confidential. Let the smile I can not understand even though in reality it is a lie. Although in the end I also have to accept the lie that is not problematic because there is no logical reason why should lie. Because of a long silence and Nonie does not tell you about the Aldi name, so I just menyakan Aldi. "What kaitanya Aldi ...!??" In my heart it's true all that the mouth of all this is that Aldi. Aldi is a lover lamnaya can not be separated. Indeed it is the estuary, inside I was thinking about it. Indeed, it is ultimately the goal. Indeed, the key there is to it.What does it mean that all existing Nonie kaitanya with Aldi.??Hurriedly, he replied "No, not him .... Aldi! That is not he the problem or be thinking. Then ..? I quickly replied. To be honest I have not fully put the past behind her with her ex."Mass honestly besides the economic problems that now ensnare me and involving my mother and father is also true that there are other times quite heavy. I do not want to dwell on this for me and also to do with Mas Ai, I want us to forward all goes well there is nothing behind getun with the wedding and this match. I want to say it weight. " He bowed and tried to express it all. It's a nice change about it. He started very open lately. In fact he was keen to explain it. During this time, he was very closed. He was very open. As if nothing had feared, as when he first wanted to clarify maslahnya. Perhaps because he knows how Mas Ai or I'm being to discover the problem. He had enough to understand my character. He said people could nrimo Mas Ai. He said again that Mas Ai orangya patient. even very patient.It did not take long, suddenly out of her mouth. A sign that there is another fear that enveloped him. I am indebted to Bandar Drugs??Again, I should not feel surprised that I judged it would result in quasi perhataian when in reality can not solve all problems. I do not need to be surprised because that is more terrible news and I feared most for me this was a reasonable and accepted mensikapinya. No need to overdo it. Although this matter very seriously demiian. Conclusions drawn on the Aldi story ever nemuin Ayahmya Mama and at night saying that while it was there Nonie Drug transaki number somewhere in Jakarta. So it turns out what was said Aldi was true. And also I have always been very confident that the story was true because I never met a fact that supports kebenaranya. We (I and Nonie) had equally tolitet throw it in with the promise to not take drugs anymore. So when Aldi had complained and said that Bandar Non involved with drugs, then in fact the news is true. I'd guess that Nonie further engage with this one activity."Recently, Arjen suddenly called and asked for payment for my shortcomings as I had ordered him two packages of drugs. I myself was surprised at the existence of it."He Bete (Arjen) Non know in Malang ..??"From my GPRS enabled." I tried to pull a deep breath. Again and again it occurred to me what more splashy story that is now being him. It seems the problem will never switch from it. From heavy to light. Disaster in deception hundreds of millions of people some time ago but it was not yet complete heavy or fraud ever happened to his parents while working as a recruitment agency that requires the mother to go to jail. Now the same thing happen to his son (Nonie). Nonie aka debt wrapped gullible people. of this very horrible. And now he latest information on airport drugs into debt.Drug dealer's name Arjen, the college friend who now deliberately chased by Malang. He deliberately charge on Nonie kekuarangannya to want to pay. He mendaptkan telephone number of a nearby friend Vera, who is in Jakarta. In a telephone vera has never apologized for telling a new number Nonie. Arjen has now therefore know where the position of Nonie. "I'm very scared Mas. I swear I'm very scared ...! "These words were uttered the most terrible threat, and this is bothering me is when Arjen said that all the debts that total reached 50 million will be completed as Non want to serve all lust or desire to serve immoral. and came in many times in the last few meetings in the city of Malang that is currently met in Matos (Malang Town Squere).Actually I'm beginning to understand why Aldi so long they want to maintain love and tend to not get out of Nonie because he was having a very big role in life Nonie for several reasons, first he was a man who had been helped toward recovery of Nonie Drug dependence pda. Aldi to sacrifice time and energy to Nonie. Aldi even have lost his job to accompany a one-week healing time Nonie Noni quarantining in peak duration. That is why I say that good people Aldi. Both Aldi has been given all the sacrifices of treasure and time and energy. Naturally, if until now Aldi Nonie never let go just like that. And I can understand why they are so close so far. I've started to accept the position and meaning of Nonie Aldi.But ... when I've started to understand the position for Nonie's Aldi, now comes a new name. Nonie never told me though that name who have contributed most to Nonie involved with drugs.That night, Nonie want to tell. Arjen suddenly come up and ask for payment for the package of drugs that had consumed him, and which is worse, Nonie faced with a threat if not able to pay or repay the deficiency. Arjen repeatedly offered a bid that was terrible for me."He told me my debts be paid off if you want to indulge ... immoral!" Nonie says softly in my ear. "By Arjen few times .. so rich!" I was so startled. My face may be burn like coals to melt steel. Because the story is most afraid of. Although I was ready to hear it. I still believe in the existence of women who maintained (as neatly veiled women in high school and college). Women are safe from things like that. But if the selected western culture I hardly ever believe that she was awake. Now I worry about is Arjen. On the one hand I have not been able to solve the problem debts in the case of investment. Now he was facing a new issue of debt with a debt-Bandar drug whose value is nearly equal to debt investments is membelitnya.At the end of the conversation that there is an incoming SMS to HP Nonie. SMS was ditunjukannya me. Hello How Kirimannya.? Not have been confused, bewildered. Meet me in the room "Hotel Madurasa" room 201. Accompany me to spend the night there ... then all the debts Lunas!.